아 자 ~

6月20日，我请客，去了金博士，虽然没有包房，但是整个楼层都让我们包了，哈哈，爽~！吃喝完了去体育场了，玩游戏踢毽子。。。。。好像没人伤感，大家都开开心心乐呵呵的，这样也好，伤感一次就够了，何尝不多留一点快乐的记忆呢。。。。

 

回到寝室又发现好多事情没做，好多事都赶在这几天。以前我想去计划整个四年，但发现是这四年计划出来了一个现在的我。。。。

 

还剩三天了，我不想毕业。

今天是16日，离毕业只剩一周了......有点紧张.......

 

这几天早上醒来想接着睡也睡不着了，总想着毕业，一想到毕业就紧张。

在屋里还好，一出屋就完了，眼里看到的一切的一切都要跟它们说拜拜了，心里感到凄凉、烦躁、失落........

剩下的七天都计划好了，就是不知道能不能都做好，在大学四年里从来都没有实现过我计划好的事情....但愿毕业能改变我这个恶习.......

 

这几天我说话也很气人，我自己感觉到了，我觉得是因为紧张的...............希望她们和他们不要往心里去~！ 真的希望你们能一路走好，过了好几十年还能想起我们一起有过的日子，写到这里我的心还怦怦跳着，差点就流出来那个咸咸的液体.......写不下去了.......

半夜一点多，又饿了，后悔大盘鸡没打包回来.....

这几天上网可有事干了，写写日志，踩踩同学的空间.....呵呵

 

晚上本想踢毽子，结果没动员成功，因有几位特别懒、懒到家的同学不捧场。我之所以这么想踢毽子，是因为想找回两年前的那感觉......那时候赶上非典，学校号召同学们多出来锻炼身体，记得那几天有好多人在体育馆前面围在一起踢毽子，欢声笑语的，无比的快乐......之后好像大家再也没机会这么聚在一起开开心心的搞过小活动了，真的好想念.........

 

只好跟喃喃去跑步，跑了三圈，累得不行之余想到了以后还能有几次机会可以在大操场里跑步、扯淡、看星星、看星海广场射向天空的那一柱光线（PS：一直把它当成月光了）.........

 

还有不剩几天的日子，想做好多事情，又不知道从何做起......真不敢相信我要毕业了，那么多事情还没做呢，真舍不得.....我不想，我不想，不想毕业~！

快毕业了，看见大家纷纷更新空间，我也有点痒痒了，但是又不想写关于毕业的，怕又开始伤感了，本来就感情丰富，更经不起这么摧残.......

就贴一首我最喜欢的关于毕业的歌来表达我的心声吧~！

 

Friends Forever (Graduation)-vitaminC

so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
where we're gonna be when we turn 25
i keep thinking times will never change.
keep on thinking things will always be the same
but when we leave this year we won't be coming back
no more hanging out cause we're on a different track
and if you got something that you need to say
you better say it right now cause you don't have another day
cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
these memories are playing like a film without sound
and i keep thinking of that night in june
i didn't know much of love but it came too soon
and there was me and you
and then we got real cool
stay at home talking on the telephone
we'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
and this is how it feels...
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever
so if we get the big jobs
and we make the big money
when we look back now
will our jokes still be funny?
will we still remember everything we learned in school?
still be trying to break every single rule
will little brainy bobby be the stockbroker man?
can heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
i keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
keep on thinking it's a time to fly
and this is how it feels....
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever
(la la la la la la la la……)
(we will still be, friends forever)
will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
can we survive it out there?
can we make it somehow?
i guess i thought that this would never end
and suddenly it's like we're women and men
will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
will these memories fade when i leave this town
i keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
keep on thinking it's our time to fly....
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever

어제까지 친구들은 다 떠났다. 미래에 대한 충경을 싣고 ,그들의 꿈을 향해서...

허전하였다,뭉클할정도로....내가 친구사이를 드한히 했을때도 친구들은 늘 나한테 감동을 주군 했다,이렇게 소중한 친구들이 있어서 행복했다....친구들아, 사랑한다~!

모두들 잘 되길 축복한다,힘들어하는 애들도, 지금 행복한 애들도 ....

 

나도 학교로 돌아갈 날이 몇날 남지 않았다....떠나고 싶으면서도 돌아올 날이 아득하여 떠나기 싫다...

슬프다,그리고 힘겹기도 하다....

 

여태것 부모님께 효성하려는 생각은 늘 해왔지만 행동에 옴긴적이 적었던같다,말 한마디라도 부모님 속 편하게 못해드린것이 미안하기만 하다,그리고 남의 가르침은 잘 들으면서도 부모님의 말씀은 가슴속깊이 새겨 들은적이 없었다.부모님은 내 인생에 도움이 안된다고 생각했던 나자신이 미련하기만하다.이제 내가 할수 있는것이 좋은 공작 찾아서 부모님 편하게 하는것뿐이다....

 

3년반의 대학생활을 해왔던 대련으로 곳 떠나게 된다,그곳에 나의 유감이 넘 많았던같다,하지만 그 유감이 나의 추억을  단장해주었던것이다,남은 반년 즐겁게 보내련다....

 

이제 곧 집에서,학교에서 벗어나 나절로 생활하게 된다....앞길이 멀고 험난하다 해도 벝티고 이겨내자~아자,화이팅~!

我更新了~！